Just got back  from school! WAt a day man! I am so shag..Had to carry tat notebook of mine to sch again cos my fren wants to borrow it to do some of i dunno wat stuff. And ended staying up till 10 to wait for him to finish..

Woohoo! Great game guys!!! And wow fizzy u can bowl man! I mean really bowl! lol The game was great though it took a while for me to get all lively and spunky..WAt can i say... i am still a bit tired. Once my spunk is activated everyone's mood seems to follow suit as well!! Now tats wat i call bowling! WE should let loose more often and just have a good time! Basically tats the purpose why we play games right!!

And besides we all manage to get a strike or two!! hahahahaha i guess the machine has been tagged by my spunky mood tat it too get all wacky on us!! lol Afterall all of us get to score a strike on one frame each!! Cool huh! I mean where else can u get to see things like tat!! lol Be with me and let my mood get to ya! yeah baby! lol I am crazy man! Must be the stress and all! Blame it on them man!

Anyway Tj dude dun worry i know u were tired and normally those who did'nt get enough rest get all grumpy and ugly! I guess u misinterpreted wat i say..I did'nt ask u to shave ur head i just said tat if u wan healthy new hair shaving the whole head is one of the way. Nevertheless its over so no point talking abt it. Hope u had a nice rest man..Come to think of it u were good in bowling too with scores above 100!! Must catch up with u and Hafiz man!!!! But first i must get myself to throw the ball straight on the lane and not on the gutter!! hahahaha.

And yes Duan i had a great time! i hope u did too! And if i didn't come late we would have more time to hang out..Sorry abt tat guys i feel bad making u guys wait up for me. Anyway have a great Sunday all right! Peace!

PS: Dopez stay cheerful always!!And if u r down u know where to reach me!! Call my Hotline!!And the same apply to all of u aight!! Take care everyone. God Bless!

Sorry guys i know its been quite a while since i last updated my blog!! Been really bz man with projects and mini assignments and yes not to mention tests!! Phew thank God i manage to clear them one by one!! Still got a few more to go!!

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

I dunno why but i just feel like my entire energy is being drained out of my system..I feel extremely lethargic!!! Yesterday was the twins birthday and i went over to their house right after school which ended at 5pm..So there i was tired and frustrated with one of my group member who did'nt turn up for the project day! I mean he still go the cheek to absent himself when there are so many things to do..Some ppl are really beyond the explaination..

Anyway back to the story..Went over to their house to prepare the surprise. Thank god they were'nt home yet. When i got there some of my cousins were already there..The moment i reached there i put down my bag and prepare spaghettti! It was such a simple delicacy tat anyone can prepare..And my cousin bought this ice cream cake from swensen and boy was it tasty!! I love the peppermint ice cream cake!! Yummy!!

I am ok!! I am sorry u guys..i made u guys worry so much abt me!! Man.....it was embarassing. Normally i can get hold of myself..I think my guard was down and so was my self esteem thus explain the outbreak!! But dun worry guys!! It won't happen again!! I assure 100% plus a guarantee stamp! lol

I dunno y must i be  tortured like this in life...I know i am suppose to be thankful tat i am born healthy and complete..But sometimes i really wish i could just be born mute...At least its better than sounding like a girl......Time and time again i told myself its ok..i am wat i am..but if it hurts so much being the person i am then wats the point????

I dun even know whether to be happy abt myself now..Ppl say i look like a girl so should i take tat as a compliment?? or an insult?? I am really really confuse..Haiz...maybe tat explains why its so hard for me to open up to a new fren..I just dunno how they will react when they hear me...

In the surface i have always looked happy and cheerful cos tat brings happiness to all the ppl ard me..but deep down i am really really bothered with myself...Too sad to even describe how bad i feel...

Finally......i have learn to say goodbye..Goodbye to my late uncle..Been really derpressed yesterday..cos too many things reminded me of him..Nevertheless we who are left behind have to move on and carry on with life...

Though we always say we have moved on but on actual basis we just kept the unwanted memories locked somewhere deep down in our heart and throw the keys far far away as we could...

Its Monday again and soon it would be the end of the week..Have you ever notice how fast time passes by when u  have so much to do...Soon it would be my final viva meaning i have to present my final year project to the panel and they will decide whether i pass or fail..Thank God i manage to get all my group members working as a team..Though its kinda late but i guess its better than nothing..2 more days to go before the fateful day! Till then i just do my best to complete the project..

Anyway enough abt tat..Last sat went to my aunt's place and help out in the ceremony comemorating on her husband's death..Its already been 40 days! Dealing with someone tat u've just lost is never easy i just hope my aunt will be able to pull through.Even though she try to live her life as usual.. i can see the pain and sadness in her eyes..I too feel her pain cos i spend my time taking care of her late husband when he was sick..I still remember when he wanted to sit i would take his hand and pull him up cos u see he was paralysed on the leftside of his body..and when he wanted to pray i would help him onto his wheelchair..and when its time for him to go for his weekly massage i would carry him onto his wheelchair and call for a cab. Staying on the 4th floor meaning i had to carry his wheelchair to the floor where there is a lift in order to get him to he ground floor..Just imagine i had to carry the heavy wheelchair all the way to the 6th floor cos tats where the lift is..i only wished tat he would recover soon back then...but i guess God has other plans for him..HE loves him too much i guess..

I still miss my dear uncle..May u rest in peace..I LOVE U...

Sincerely yours,
OkoiSan

Wow!! wat a day huh!! All i can say is THANK YOU guys for inviting me to the picnic! i had a great time! i hope u guys did too!!!And Goodbye my faithful cap..My life won't be the same without u! I hate my hair and now i dun have any hat to cover up my head..I feel bad though..afterall it was a present which i treasure very much..Oh well i guess i just have to save up and buy myself a new one!Afterall like i always say.. Nothing last forever..

Anyway it was great plunging into the water from the bridge together with Faizal and Hafiz!! U guys rock man!! Too bad i am not such a good swimmer! If not i would have jump as much as they both did!!lol And rik!! Wow! hahaha wat a neat hairdo dude!! Now tats wat i call awesome! Hyqel u look great especially with tat shades..i've been wanting to owe something like tat for a long time!!lol

Besides tat i hope i was'nt too heavy for Edward and Faizal when i climbed over their shoulder!!lol And hafiz!! LOSER!! lol kidding!! Thank God the rain stopped! If not today won't be a reality!!I was hoping for a sunny and breezy day but i guess the weather was not bad either..it was breezy and cloudy just how Rik wished for..

I think i must have looked funny huh today! With only shorts and sleeveless shirt!! cos once again my gender was questioned!!The uncle actually tot i was a girl and he stopped me from going into the gents!! lol How bizarre!! Anyway this is'nt the first time..the last time it happened at the gents at Lido! HAHA man my life can never get better than this huh!! Anyway i am not irritated or annoyed just feel its hilarious! Wat an interesting life i got!! I think i got my first cramp today..While swimming with Faizal and Hafiz my left leg got crammed!! Man tat was scary! Thank goodness the tide was low and thanks Faizal for pushing me back to shore! I hope we have more of this fun outing man!! Till then Cherios Amigos!!

Sincerely,
OkoiSan