I dunno y must i be  tortured like this in life...I know i am suppose to be thankful tat i am born healthy and complete..But sometimes i really wish i could just be born mute...At least its better than sounding like a girl......Time and time again i told myself its ok..i am wat i am..but if it hurts so much being the person i am then wats the point????

I dun even know whether to be happy abt myself now..Ppl say i look like a girl so should i take tat as a compliment?? or an insult?? I am really really confuse..Haiz...maybe tat explains why its so hard for me to open up to a new fren..I just dunno how they will react when they hear me...

In the surface i have always looked happy and cheerful cos tat brings happiness to all the ppl ard me..but deep down i am really really bothered with myself...Too sad to even describe how bad i feel...